I lay in bed with my mind racing. I know I am supposed to be sleeping already so that I can wake up early in the morning but then, sleep seems so far away.
I had a quarrel today. With a really dear friend of mine and as much as I hate to admit that I am wrong sometimes, I can’t help but think of how wrong I possibly am.
I don’t like to fight at all. I don’t know how to but I sure do a pretty good work defending myself when the need arises.
What if I was wrong to defend myself? What if I did something really bad? What if all these fight is all my fault? These are the questions that run through my mind. I can’t help but feel like I am a selfish person.
The good thing is that, I have had the opportunity to have this little cross-examination with myself. Now I know where I can do better. Now I have come to know how important friendship is to me and how double-sided it has to be.
I have to play my own role too. I can’t leave all the caring, love and sacrificing to my friend alone. I have to show all these too. Therefore, I shall make more efforts from this day forward to be a better friend and be willing to apologize for my wrongs.
Dearest friend, I am really sorry. I promise to do better. I hope you can forgive me. I am a work in progress and I assure you that I will work towards being a friend indeed to you. I love you